Usually bubbly but now she is shy
she watches him out of the corner of her eye
a pocket full of icebreakers, memories shared
all it’d take’s just a word,
but life isn’t fair
and so, she waits.
One hand on her Bible and one to the sky
love’s strong as death and she knows it inside
a kitchen full of people, she could slip away
but she hears his voice and it’s making her stay
her heart skips a beat though he’s ten feet away
he smiles at her once there goes all her okay
when she relives the moment that night, she will say,
Lord, there’s this man and I know that you see
the way my heart skips when he’s right next to me
He’s all that I want and he can’t ever know
it’s killing me every time I try to let him go
Lord, bless him and keep him and show him your love
lead him to lean on the heavens above
blessings and blessings, Lord rain on his life
bring him a beautiful girl for a wife
I bet she will love him with all of her heart
it’s what he deserves but it tears me apart
cuz she cannot be me.
Usually confident, she’ll be the first
to offer a smile and sing out the verse
but something in the way he cares is causing her to wait
and sometimes she’s afraid the words are written on her face
He looks at her and all the world’s beauty fades away
he smiles with his eyes; she can’t help but want to stay
she wonders if he knows the dreams she has when she’s awake
when every time he meets her eyes, it’s more than she can take
cuz all she wants is to let go
but love is something she can’t know
with him.
He’s diamonds and rubies and a heart of gold
he pulls her in closer, but he doesn’t know
she battles her heart, and there’s one place she’ll go…
Lord, there’s this man and I know that you see
the way my heart skip when he’s right next to me
he’s always the first to step up and to care
he’ll hug me so gently and it’s just not fair
cuz Lord all the odds say he’ll never be mine
God, I’m afraid that it won’t turn out fine
I’d swim through an ocean to give him a life
Lord, that’s how it’d feel if you gave him a wife
cuz she cannot be me.
Oh God why can’t she be me?
All I want is to be free
Of this feeling inside that’ll never grow dim
with every heartbeat one small pulse pounds for him
I’m waging a war I know I cannot win
Oh God why does this love feel like it’s a sin?
One hand on her Bible and one to the sky
Some days she’s happy, but some nights she’ll cry
like last month when she overheard his name
a flood of memories and then came the pain
just for a moment, and then did she say
Lord there’s this man and I know that you see
the way my heart longs for him to just be
Mine.
Oh God why can’t he be mine?
Lord, send my love and please bless him tonight.
-LeaRose
This is so beautiful. I'm going through an experience incredibly similar to this and you perfectly captured how it feels 😭😭